Tuesday, 26 April 2022

Ramana Sahasranam-6 (697-802)

 https://archive.arunachala.org/docs/sadhu-om/sri-ramana-sahasram

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Upadesha Undiyar verse 9

“By the force of intense feeling/thinking abidance in pure being transcending thought through love intense is very essence of supreme devotion.”

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700) Only by Your almighty Grace I can achieve the
knowledge of oneness of Self. For it is impossible to
attain jnana in any birth merely by the effort of my
petty intellect which is identifying the body as 'I'.

Declaring One's Own Immaturity (apakva)

702) You have given instructions in so many ways that the mind, if seeks happiness should go back and drown in the heart. It is only mistake of apakva, that those instructions gave no fruit, for I have not absorbed and observed them. Graciously rectify my mistake of apakva.

704) O father, now I clearly see that I have no real love
to Your holy Feet. Though my condition is such
instead of offering me Your true love if You still
keep me false (?) and abandon me, how much
worse will I become, I do not know (don't leave
such ) (?)

711) I do not have the strength of good virtuous tapas in
my past births. I do not have the mental strength to
do tapas at least in this present birth. Moreover I
do have bundle of sins accumulated in my past
births and a heavy treasure of unlimited vasanas.
Seeing my pitiable condition please take pity on me
and save me.

Wondering at One's Own Defect

719) It is said that "That birth alone will be the wonderful last birth in which the Satguru is seen by one's own eyes". But now in spite of my seeing You the Satguru in my present birth, I am still in this worse condition! Therefore I am unable to understand how You are going to put an end to my future births! However graciously do!

723) The spoon, though being immersed in the tasty food
throughout the day, it cannot know the taste of teh
food.So also O Annamalai Ramana, have I become
like the spoon not getting the profit of Grace in
spite of remaining all my life time at Your Feet!

Pitying For One's Own Defects

729) This ego-I thinking as if it is really existing as an individual, wishes to attain all benefits such as power attain all benefits such as power (shakthi) and liberation (mukthi) remaining in this body. It does not know that its own loss (of individuality) itself is sakthi and mukthi. Ah! What a pity!

730) I rise myself as (?) 'I am this body', then by
functioning as the body as I, making the ego to
grow, see my own self, as the separate world in
front, roaming desirous of getting the worldly
things and suffer greatly! What a pathetic life! O
Shiva Ramana, kindly arrest me (that pathetic
fellow) (?) not allowing to rise.

736) Neither surrendering to You by Bhakti nor attaining
Your Feet by the power of Yoga, nor killing the ego
by enquiry my life in this body is a useless jail life.
Is it not? Please have Your gracious glance on me.

751) There is nothing more to be done (either tapas or
the sadhana) by my own power. Hereafter whatever
I am to do, You have to make me do that tapas,
without deceiving. Be gracious. In my present weak
state please do not argue. Please do not deceive
this weaker of the weakest (?) and bind me in maya.
Be gracious.

759) Something rises from sleep catching hold of the
body as I, then as 'I am the body' in the form of the
ego, attaching with the body (many births) roam
and wander in the world (with desire) in between
repenting for that state, by thinking of You,
longingly pray facing You, "Oh, my father, Lord
Ramana, when will You withdraw me into the heart"
- thus weeping bitterly - is this the result You have
given? Graciously put and end to this rising.

765) Oh the purest! There is nothing more as new to
pray to You. So, I am again and again repeat the
same prayer which I have already made, and that
is, I cannot live without Your Grace. Therefire,
estow Your Grace by saying "Fear not" and make
me as Your own.

769) If You give me the power to cling to self
unceasingly, what else is there to beg from You? O
mother, father, O my gracious Guru, when will You
give me this?

772) I am waiting, thinking 'Today it will be , within
tomorrow the good will happen" - When will it
happen? What will become of me when death
comes? If this body dies without knowing the
oneness of the reality, even though I have come to
You, how will Your Grace be valued?

774) Every time I think I will, from now onwards become
a proper vessel to Your Grace, thinking repeatedly,
instead of turning within diving deep, thinking as
above floating on the thought and spoilt - what a
foolish (mad) as it is?

779) O, Chit-Ananda-Rupa, Annamalai, ever shining
(neither day or night) the ancient Lord. Sri Ramana
Satguru, when will I merge, losing I, the ego and
become Gracefully bliss form (?) - in You, the pure
love?

780) Just like magnet attracts iron and retains it, the day
You draw my mind without movement (chalana) by
Your gracious pull, retain in You without getting me
extroverted, is the auspicious day for me.

796) Tell me, when I will walk deep along transcending
time and space, path of self-ward way where not
even a single foot print of fate can be implanted
and reach heart, the oneness of the essence of bliss
and atain the loss of all miseries.


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Thursday, 21 April 2022

Ramana Sahasranam -5 (414 to 697)

 https://archive.arunachala.org/docs/sadhu-om/sri-ramana-sahasram

414 to 

414) By repeatedly thinking nothing can be attained; By
realising that the free will that thinks should
submerge in the heart holding the self is the real
Nishta and is alone the real Sat Karya. Please
provide me the strength by Your Grace to turn
within and be still.

415) Bless me now itself so that my suffering mind
should reach Your Feet, attain the supreme Kashta
Samadhi and become Your treasure of Nirvikalpa,
well protected by You and becomes You.

417) Grant me the love to attain the siddhi of forgetting
the world picture and to ever think (aware) of the
being consciousness (chit). O my Lord I beg Your
Grace to grant me the Bhakti to love self (?).

420) What is life? Is it wandering along with the
thoughts like this? Is it not drowning within,
without the rising of even the trace of a single
thought? Therefore, rescue me by taking me back
from the three states of fixing as me in You, where I
will not get any thought of duality.

423) By Your Grace fix me on to that which shines as the
wonderful base of consciousness, so that it
becomes my Sahaja Nishta, as 'I-I', as one without a
second (advaita) and subside.

425) O Jnana Sivam, bestow upon me to turn within
(Ahamukha) which I shall reach quickly without
waste of time and where I shall enjoy undisturbed
peace at Your Feet which is the source shining
within.

428) When the water surface moves they are called
waves, when the waves become still it is ocean, so
also if the wandering mind becomes still it is self. O
my Lord, why should I wander? Still me by Your
Grace and turn me to the self.

429) The good tapas done by body and mind are limited
and they cannot be Akhanda (unlimited). Therefore,
graciously bestow upon me, the unfit, the tapas
with which I can remain in self as Sahaja Nishta.

431) Ordain me to drown completely and _ well
established in the ocean of bliss of the supreme
Self-knowledge where no 'I' different from the
reality will be known and where there is neither
creation not destruction.

443) Rob off my insincere mind take me within and feed
me the surging ocean of ambrosia of the bliss of
Your Self-knowledge, so that my heart will surge
with joy.


449) Bestow upon me Your unobstructed Grace so that I
shall give up all tastes towards the external and
abide in nirvikalpa samadhi within, and thus reach
the life in heart which shines gloriously like a Sun.

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460) O my master, the emperor of Jnana who shines
beyond the five Gods who perform the five
functions (creation, sustenance, destruction, veiling
and Anugraha) Grant me the state of drowning and
abiding in heart without rising again as ‘I am this'
on any cause.

463) Make my life to be the perfect empty space of
Grace with dense silence where there will rise no
necessity of thinking, speaking and doing
something by destroy (?) the rising of 'I'.

471) By Your Grace increase my desire to reach to
climax to abide firmly in self, the real state devoid
of the rising of the ego. Give me this bhiksha to
Your son.

472) Though You ever reside within me the nearest and
dearest of all, due to delusion, I think that You, my
God is residing far way from me, You dispel this
delusion and shine as I-I.

473) Give me the strength of conviction that all
wonderful new things which I see here other than
the reality of self, which ever shines as one, are
false and reveal me the truth.

475) Only when I am surrendered to You and become a
prey to Your Grace I can achieve the fearless life.
 
If I remain even a little as a separate individual
different from You, certainly there will be fear.
Remove my distress.


476) When will You bestow Your Grace upon me so that
nothing will be known as something other than I?
 
If at all I have to gain a boon, it is only this boon.
Make me understand that all other achievements
either in this world or in other worlds are mere
dream achievements.


477) If I have to attain the state of detachment nothing
should exist as other than I in order to attach
myself to it.

 Otherwise can the state of complete
detachment be fulfilled?

 O my Satguru will Your
Grace come to me and destroy the delusion that 'I
am the body' responsible for external projection.


Praying to Swallow me as His Prey

478) O my father Arunachala Ramana, a great treasure of Grace who came to me in front of my eyes, my God in the form of my Guru, I should become a prey to Your Grace. This is the judgement (?) which I want from You.

480) O the one who came as my Guru facing southward,
will You not be gracious to make all my mind and
body swallowed by You and thereby turn into the
sweet bliss of self.

482) I, the ego have risen up and come into living
because somehow I lost my Self-awareness. 

I then
has concepted (?) a body and a world for me and
get attached to whatever I see in front of me and
fear. Kindly swallow me graciously as Your prey.


483) By Your valour of Grace happily make me a prey to
You, so that I may not become a waste by going
through all poisonous paths shown by the egoistic
mind which is stubborn and uncontrollable.


484) So long as there is an apparent existence for me (as
if I am this body) my worries will not cease even a
bit. Instead of that if You have swallowed me then
what worry will come and to whom?

485) O the great giver who gave Your darshan even to
me who had no purity of mind, as per the same
gracious compassion of Yours, now make me turn
within, make me subside and swallow me as Your
prey.

486) Believing the power of Your Feet which is
omnipotent I am living. If You swallow my petty
dark ignorant mind by Your Grace, | will abide in
the egoless state.

487) You have provided me in so many ways the chances
of innumerable favourable circumstances and
environments to dive within. Yet I have wasted
those chances and become extroverted. Destroy me
by swallowing me as Your prey.

488) Will You not surge up and swallow me, the petty
Jiva, giving the real duty of remaining still as the
mere existence 'I am' and not to rise again as an
attribute 'I am so and so' who performs good and
bad karmas.


489) O the one due to great compassion towards me in
my Young age, trapped me and brought me to You,
now grant me the great love to turn within towards
You and swallow me by making me as Your own.


491) O the Achala who resides in the heart of all but
unknown to anyone. O, the reality of the whole
universe, arrest me under Your Feet so that I
cannot rebel.


492) Making me dissolve as a salt doll and to lose my
individuality in the ocean of heart, a house which
will not give room to anyone who does not subside
(with humility) is truly within your real power.


493) Having my mind calm and clear having no taste in
the world which appears, let me dissolve in You, (by
Your above power), the eternal, natural one and
become the form of supreme love, make me as (?)
Your slave to be so.

494) Except those who firmly stand on the axle (?)
(centre) of the wheel, others if (?) move away even
a little, will have to whirl around on actions
(karmas). Therefore, make me never move away
from You, the axle (?) (centre) (Hill or Self

495) Do not drive me along the ways where the mind
wants to wander, but make me act as a humble
slave of You. Unite with me in the non-dual state
where no desires but bliss alone will shine.

496) Press Your Lotus Feet strongly upon me, so that I
shall become one with You drowned well at the rock
bottom of the ocean of Your Jnana, having achieved
the complete Self-denial that the foolish pramada
(forgetfulness) will not rise again.

497) By giving me the natural bliss of self in an
undeluded (?) manner and by swallowing my false
Jiva individuality which has a stormy mind, bind me
with Your Feet by Your Grace.

498) Make me reach at Your Feet, my source the state of
perfection with unfailing great effort and
enthusiasm and to completely give up all external
attachments of the mind and to abide within with
unceasing Self-Attention.

499) Because of thinking about the world which has
risen in me by me, but is appearing as if different
from me, I feel I have been separated from You.
Kindly meet me with You as one by Your Grace.

500) The darkness of sleep is the base for the
appearance of dream. So also the ignorance (of not
knowing the self) is the base for the waking state.
Unite me in the heart so that all these mental
modifications (sleep, dream and waking) will cease
(in the unmanifested state)


501) Be gracious to bestow upon me the experience of
Brahma-sakshatkara in the house of divine bliss, so
that I shall shine as the pure consciousness without
the rising of the false ego - I.

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506) Unite and revel with me so that I shall drown in the
blissful auspicious life which results when the I am
the body idea is destroyed where no knowledge as
life of this world or in the next can exist.

522) I myself is Your possession. Not knowing this, why
did I steal away the possessions as mine the body
and the worldly objects. You alone have the duty to
remove my ignorance not making me as a
substance apart from You and fix me in the state of
non-duality. Kindly do so.

524) I do not know the nature of my existence, I do not
know how I rise as 'I', I do not know the real love. I
do not know the nature of Your shining within as
the sphurana (why so?). Because I have faith in
Your Grace that You, my Lord know how to protect
me, who even though play and perish with the five
senses.

529) O my father, when I am alive in this body, instead of
thinking of any other things, the thought
(attending) of Your gracious Feet alone is the holy
act. The rest of the thoughts are waste. Such
thought of thinking (?) others, unceasingly only
adds up karmas. Therefore ever give me the
thought (attention to) of Your Feet.

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534) Graciously think a little about me to give me the
great enthusiasm to take to the unbroken Self-
Attention with love and the full conviction that
attending self alone is the highest and the best of
all human endeavours.

536) O Annamalai, the great heap of bliss and peace!
Graciously think about me so that I shall live in
Your home of bliss in the form of the supreme heart
space which results, after all the vasanas are swept away.


537) Graciously think of me so that I shall remain
without thoughts in You who is the source of me,
devoid of the rising of the ego, rooting out
victoriously the vasanas rising in the foolish filthy
mind, due to past karmas.


540) Though You have taught me as clear as the daylight
that ones own Self-consciousness devoid of
objective knowledge alone is Jnana, 

I am stumbling
and tottering due to being blinded by the 'I am the
body idea'. Therefore, graciously think to save me.

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542) If You agree a little all my worldly attachment will fly away. My mind will turn self-ward fully, and will drown in the heart revelling in bliss. 543) By Your command, when innumerable globes are moving in the space in their respective paths without any clash (?), will not my petty mind disobey Your divine control? Therefore make my mind still, under Your command.


552) I am a big fool who has not learnt the art of Self-Attention, devoid of world attention and to remain ever united with You. If Your benign Grace comes upon me. All my troubles will end and Jnana will shine.


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563) Instead of clinging to Your Feet, why should it
depend upon the power of my intellect? Is it for
waste (?) that You have given me this birth and
have taken me under Your intense care? Please tell.

564) Is it not that “useful life" means that the mind
should drown into the ocean of heart and lose its
entity in the supreme silence? But You have allowed
my mind to be dragged along by the senses! Is it
only for this that You have given me this body life?

570) Is it simply to waste my life as a fool who does not
learn how to drown and subside in You, the
supreme whole that You have given birth to me,
and were feeding me and putting me always under
Your intense care of Your Feet? Tell me.

Except You Who is Capable?

572) Make me still and remain ever as the well established Jnana of Self-consciousness. Except You, the Satguru who else can kill the ghostly rise of my mind and make it never rise again?


588) Though entire action in my life is under the control
of prarabdha, You have given me freedom to think
of You (the self). In the same way You can be
gracious on me (?) independent of prarabdha.
Therefore, against You or me, who else or which
karma can stop to bestow Your Grace upon me?
Hence bestow Your Grace here and now.

590) Are You not that supreme guru, the absolute
supreme god, by begging to whom this petty
knowledge (the ego) which has risen as I am this
fleshy body! will subside (?) reaching its own
source, therefore bestow me losing its entity, the
biksha of the state I begged for.


603) For reasons not known (maya), with a quality of
Ahankara (I am the body) and mamakara (these are
mine), there raises a first person 'I'. However much
I prevent, it does not stop going towards (pravrithi)
extrovertedness. The power to destroy the above
rising is at Your gracious hands. Is it not? Therefore
You destroy (that rising) and save me.

613) I am living in this body uselessly wasting all my life
time. Hence You have to, by the power of Your
ocean of Grace make me reach the state of Atma
Nishta. What else can I do for my salvation here
after?

614) My mind rises to learn all these worldly arts adn
gets more and more taste. But to get to subsidein
self, the true art, (?) the mind will obey only by Your
power of Grace. It will not subside of it's own
accord.


617) You should shower Your Grace so that the desire to
attend to self changes to love (losing the form of
ego). Gracefully aim at me the Brahmastra to have
strong vichara of 'Who am I'?


619) Make me bold to destroy the rising if the abhimana
of Ahankar, the demon by the sword of Guru Bhakti
and with the shield of vairagya which is the root
cause for success.


624) O the almighty, if You ordain that "Let Your mind be
pure", my mind which has become dirty due to
filthy (attachment) will glow like a diamond and
become _sat-chit-swarupa. "Those who reach
Arunachala, however small the creature be, will get
liberation without any effort (sadhana)". Kindly,
prove these words of Yours by making it true in my
case.


625) Mistaking the body as self is the reason for the
appearance of the world-picture. In order to kill
this false notion put Your Feet in my heart and
dance as "I alone Am".

626) What is that "putting Your Feet and dancing in the
heart"? It is nothing but Your Atma-Spurana by the
power of which destroying the mind carried away
by vasanas, a play of power of Grace merging with
You.

627) Instead of ever abiding in self, the liking to know
the objects seen in front rises due to earlier
vasanas or for whatever reason, You, by the power
of Your Grace destroy it (the liking) by winning over
it. Except You, to whom I can pray for this?


628) In spite of my bowing down before You (When You
were with the body as Ramana) (?) and met Your
gracious glance, the spear of Jnana, I have not lost
my vices! Kindly use the next powerful weapon -
Mouna and annihilate me or else it is of no use.
Hence deploy the weapon of Mouna immediately.

634) May the wonderful Grace of Sri Ramana alone be
victorious! Let the strength of the fruit of my
various karmas be doomed! May the one great
sakthi (power) of the weapon of unbroken mouna
(Akhanda - mouna - sakthi) which is shining ever
victoriously be victorious in me! (?)

639) To think of that which appears as second and third
person objects (anniya) is waste. To find the source
of the 'I', he who attends the above (objects) is
Tapas. O my Lord who dragged me to Your Feet
only to turn my extroverted nature of the mind to
attend inwards (Ahamukha), please help me to turn
inward.


640) Since You are my father and mother who had given
birth to me, You Yourself should make me think of
Your Feet. I am powerless to do any sadhana to
reach You. I have taken You as my refuge and
surrendered to You. All my burden and
responsibilities are only Yours.

659) In front of the art of Self-enquiry, the sixty four
worldly knowledges become false in this world, and
established that the true Self-knowledge as the
truth, let Your Feet be a true refuge to this fool.

661) O my Satguru who is holding the sword of Self-
knowledge, by Your Grace the life of 'I am the body'
should leave or else, I will be burnt by the forest
fire of these karmas. Hence I do not have any
refuge except Your Feet.

If Your Grace Alone is the Important Factor

666) I have a life in this body still by Your Grace. Hereafter Your Grace has to provide the life where the ego is lost, ever remain in sahaja Self-knowledge.

667) Knowing that nothing can be done by me without
Your Grace and having surrendered completely to
Your gracious heart that ("Let everything happen as
per Your wish"). I am simply rising my clasping (?)
hands of prayer to You without making any effort or
sadhana on my part. Bestow Your Grace upon me.

670) "To have the darshan of Lord or self" (to see), "to
know, to merge and to unite one with him, to be
established in self, to enjoy the great happiness" -
thus say the elders. Truly what is this? Not allowing
the rising of the false appearance in the form of "I
am the body" is being told in different words. To get
this 'state of losing one's entity' is Your Grace
which is prayed for. Be gracious.

671) If I am to rise up to the higher states and get Your
Grace, You have not given me that mental strength
and vairagya! What is with me is this fickle mind
which keeps on wavering frequently. Has this mind
so much power to merge in Heart? No, the power of
Your Grace is alone needed. Kindly come and be
gracious.


672) Your Grace alone is essential to experience that
which remains, after the loss of my individuality, 'I'
and 'mine' ceases to exist and to remain firmly fixed
- there (?). Bestow Your Grace upon me.

673) Except by Your gift of Grace, to get the true life of
living established in Heart, to remain as self,
immersed in mouna samadhi (beyond words), fully
detached with the body - there is no other way.

674) Abiding and merging in Heart, not allowing the
rising of the attribute 'I am the body’, You, the
support that does not appear (externally). Be
gracious that I should dissolve and merge in You.
Except Your Grace there is no other go for me.
Hence be Gracious.

676) Your Grace alone is essential for me to have true
love for liberation (moksha). Otherwise, will it be
possible for my blunt and unripened mind to find
out, distinguish and otherwise even a bit, the
eternal from the ephemeral?

677) For me, a crazy fool, who has a small limited
intelligence which is nothing but a big ignorance,
will it be possible to learn and attain the supreme
silence, which cannot be gained except by Your
Grace. Therefore, bestow Your Grace upon me.

681) But for the Grace of compassion of my Lord Guru
Ramana, defects of this slave cannot be got rid of!
In short, this is the essence of my prayer! To do this
prayer, the true love with a melting heart is needed;
You only have the power and responsibility and
hence be kindly be gracious.

682) Without a true knowledge, thinking the world to be
real and living, taking this body as I, to keep the
body fit and strong, having crores of wasteful
thoughts day and night - (weakening day by day)
this poor idiot, Your Grace alone should provide me
true knowledge.

686) What is the use by repeatedly thinking that this
world is a mirage, a false dream or a trivial thing?
Such a thinking is only an effort made only after the
rising of ego 'I'. What benefit will it bring to me,
unless Your Grace is bestowed upon me.

687) Only Your unequal and natural Grace on me should
give me liberation, otherwise either the maturity of
my filthy mind or the sadhanas done by it cannot
give liberation. Therefore please rush towards me
and give me Your unlimited Grace.

688) The clear experience of Jnana is not attained by any
one without Grace. Therefore, O Gurunatha what
else can I do except weeping, melting an praying
for Your Grace?

689) O my Lord who fixed Your Lotus Feet well and
danced in my heart, If I obtain Your compassion on
me that alone is sufficient to remove all miseries
and to obtain all happiness. Then by Your Grace my
mind will become Your sincere slave.

691) My mean human intellect is unbelievable. It does
not have the ability to earn the wealth of Grace.
Therefore, please provide me true love to You by
Your Grace. Remove the unwanted one in the heart
destroying it, and You come in and fill as the space
of light of consciousness.

692) The unshakably (?) strong conviction in me that the
asat (the body) is sat (real existent) does not given
room to realise the truth even a little. Therefore by
Your Grace kindly blossom my heart and reveal the
truth.

694) I have not perfectly done anything as sadhana, I
have not followed Your instructions, what all I do is,
I always weepingly call You, sing and long for Your
Grace and make complaints about my agony. I do
nothing more. Kindly be compassionate towards
me.

695) I have become too weak to do any sadhana because
of the great agony I experience which is due to the
fighting against the crowd of my vasanas, Now I fall
at Your Feet as the refuge. Kindly protect me.

697) Like every effort taken by a man who is half
drowned into a loose wet mud (?) is only favourable
to be drowned deeper and deeper. Myself with the
desire of fame (of mud) by reading scriptures liking
the flattery of others. I sink deeper and deeper in
the mud. Hence by the effort of reading scriptures
one can get sunk more and more deeper (in the
fame mud) and how can I get liberation (sat-gati)?

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Wednesday, 20 April 2022

Ramana Sahasranam-4 (209 -413)

 209 to 413

(part 1 started with 702)

https://archive.arunachala.org/docs/sadhu-om/sri-ramana-sahasram

210) I am very poor in learning strength of mind, ability
in remaining in stone like samadhi by vairagya.
Dispel the darkness of my ignorance, encourage me
by Your Grace and make fit in order to prove Your
words declared in in upanishads

211) Giving up the highest bliss of remaining as mere
existence (self), what a foolish act this that I
mistake this body as 'I' and suffer? O my father,
Lord Arunachala Ramana, the supreme
consciousness of self, Gracefully rectify my above
defect.

212) Why did You allow me to have a desire to rise up
rather than loving the nature of quietly remaining
as the mere existence? You who know the means to
turn me within towards You kindly lead me to abide
in You, the self.

214) O my Lord Sri Ramana Bhagavan, gladly accept my
body and mind as a good instrument at Your hand
and for its movement I should not be made the
doer. To this please do not leave me a second and
You activate them as You please.

215) Let my mind, speech and body function only if it is
driven by Your Grace. Make them act along the line
of Your Grace having no liberty of their own.

218) Now I understand very well that I am unfit to bear
the wealth of Your Grace. But though my mind is
very wicked. I do not know anyone else except You
as my refuge. Therefore kindly You alone guide my
mind.

219) After I had been brought by Your Grace to Your
Feet only to be saved, what is there on my part to
do? (nothing). You Yourself do everything directly.

220) Bestowing upon me the strength (of Jnana) to be
indifferent towards every thing that happens
around me, reform my life and cool down the heat
of desires of my mind in the blissfully cool ocean of
yoga which is the real benefit of renunciation
(sanyasa)

223) When will that day dawn in which You will make me
abide in the state of self (as mere sat)? 
Make me
remain in the state of mere being consciousness
where I can know neither me as a separate entity
nor any other thing apart from me.


224) Since every thought is nothing but enemy of
happiness, none of them will give any happiness.
Therefore, destroy all thoughts which rise from the
one wicked 'I thought' and drown that root thought
within.

225) The great love towards (self) existence has
somehow taken a wrong turn and turned into desire
on worldly objects and took the form of like and
dislike towards external objects. Kindly by Your
Grace retrieve back and drown it within You.


230) “As the seer so is the seen", Hence graciously fix
me as one, the Heart which has no thought and
purna,
 with the eye of self and be one in sahaja by
Your Grace and retain me.


240) Of all the pictures in the false world appearance, 'I'
the seer is the first false one. The root cause of this
appearance is the slackness in love towards the
self; is it not? O my Satguru, since You are my real
self, graciously pull me to You.

247) Graciously rise as 'I-I' so that the worthless ego will
not rise again by Your Grace by holding me who
pray to You, praising You, weeping and begging You
lamenting like a worm with agony. Bind me with Your Feet.

254) Brahman the supreme space devoid of bondage and
liberation is nothing but the revelation of one's own
nature. Who else except You can reveal by Grace
that awareness of self shining in the heart.

260) Be gracious towards me, the poor one, so tat I,
instead of shooting the arrow of the very subtle
intellect towards worldly aims which is wasteful
effort, but to shoot it inward (self-ward) and obtain
great love at Your Lotus Feet.

263) When the body is sustained by prarabdha, thinking
of it day and night, like catching hold of a crocodile
as a raft why do I lose my path for salvation?
Separate me from this world and hold me.

.....

331) When the people in the world provide me with kind
heart all my needs is it not my duty to unceasingly
meditate upon You with sincere love? Hence bestow
upon me the true love to You.

..

340)The perfect Love towards Self is liberation. It alone
is silence and Bhakti.
 Instead of scrutinising thus
and clinging to heart, how foolish I am in thinking
that the world and its pleasures are true. Remove
my foolishness so that I shall meditate upon self.

341) The Self-Attention which You have given (taught)
alone is powerful clue and means to return along
the way I came. Graciously remove all the obstacles
of delusion on the way of clinging to Self-Attention
and bestow upon me, the swatma-Bhakti (Self-love)

342) From where the first thought 'I am the body' rises
loving to think of the source is the correct love to
cling to You and that alone is "Who am I? " and
“Whence am I?" forms of enquiry. O my Jnana Guru,
give me this love (Bhakti).

Rewrite above

343) My desire is that the love for self should gush forth
and flood, what is the loss for You if You give me
this love? 
Except You, the Sat-chit-ananda Ramana
Guru, where there can be a separate 'I' who is the
bliss of the self?

344) O Annamalai Ramana, enter into my heart in the
form of the supreme Jnana and graciously bestow
upon me the great liking to dive deep within and to
see self, giving up all other useless thoughts.

345) O Supreme Self, the light of consciousness
whomever sets down in the heart of Your good
devotees, blossom in me the flower of love to revel
in You, the self which removes all miseries of the
false mind.

346) Graciously give me the love to see You within so
that by the strength of knowing the truth that
abiding in self is the best of all the best virtuous
endeavours my useless mind will give up attending
to false things which are alien.

347) If You give me the supreme love of self, then which
thing and what for should I seek? Will even this
state ruling over heaven be equal to that?
Therefore give me the state that You should rule
over me.

349) Any second person object which appears as dual
one in front of me either within or without cannot
be God abiding within due to the love of self alone
is the real Guru Bhakti. Is it not? Give me indeed
that love.

350) Bestow upon me the great one-pointed love (for
self) so that my mind cannot have love to any single
other thing except You, the gracious Ramana
seated in my heart Lotus only then the annihilation
of the sense, 'I am the body' will take place.

351) Without losing the love towards Self due to
inadvertence (pramada). I must firmly abide in Self.
If it not (?) only for this I was longing and
lamenting for a very long time. Graciously fulfil my
desire.

.............

Praying for the true knowledge

361) You who have already taken me as Your own should make me know by Your Grace that the mere knowledge of I am (self) alone is the complete Jnana
and should make me remain ever firm in it.


364) By thinking wrongly that this seeming gross body
etc., as 'I', 1 am bound by time and place. Destroy
my bondage by making me know that the space of
pure consciousness alone is my real nature.


367) Since the dualities appear as real as the truth of the
ego, make me abide as the reality surging as ‘I am'
which is the perfect whole, destroying the false
knowledge which rises as "I am this body".

371) If I do not get the true knowledge, the actions
(karma) in this life will bind me, as if I am the doer.

Reveal to me the state of non-doer-ship and
keeping me as a mere instrument in Your safe
hands.


372) I am an (?) ignorant and dull due to the wrong
identification with the mind which always wanders
and unable to reach my imperishable immortality
that I am searching for. Reveal to me the truth by
strongly pulling me within Your Grace.

384) Until I drown in the beauty of Self and experience
it, this present life of mine cannot be understood as
a dream. 
Set Your fire of Jnana in me in order to
turn me self-ward and thus reveal Your formless
divine dance as 'I-I'.

386) Nothing (no attainment) will be equal to Jnana
awakening; The happiness of Brahma Loka Life
which is experienced like dream is also to be
treated as waste. to get such Jnana awakening
there is only one path the "Who am I?", the Self-
Attention. O my Satguru who has power to wake
me up, Gracefully wake me up.

388) By tapping (?) me up from the long Ajnana sleep,
removing me from the crores of births and life of
waking dream (Jagra swapna), awakening the self
by Your Grace, make me abide in Sahaja Nishta and
thus rise Your sceptre of Grace.

394) By Your intense union within me make firm the
consciousness of self, devoid of pramada
(inadvertence) so that I shall see the activities in
this seeming world as a mere dream, be totally
indifferent towards them and thus remain egoless.
......

398) O my Lord, by Your Grace make me unshakably
understand that whatever happens whether good or
bad is not apart from Your will and Grace 
and to
have the strength to abide in the consciousness of
the true awakening.


407) Except the state of true Jnana where the ego 'I'
does not rise, I do not want even the life of Gods in
heavens. 
All such heavens are  delusive
appearances which can be seen only after the rising
of 'I'. 
Hence what is the use of them?


411) The desire to achieve other things rises only
because of the self love. Since that desire cannot
rise when one remains in self, graciously make me
ever remain in the self.


413) (a) Feed me with the strength to turn self-ward and
ever remain in self, by making me know that
nothing can be done by my thinking and that only
abiding in self drowning in the heart is worthy of
attaining by Jiva Swatantra, having lost the rising
of 'I' and all individual efforts.

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Wednesday, 13 April 2022

Ramana Sahasranam-3 (1 to 209)

 https://archive.arunachala.org/docs/sadhu-om/sri-ramana-sahasram

1 to 209

10) The "True Seeing" means one/s seeing oneself.

"Seeing Other" - can it not be other than blindness?
Therefore, see me so that I shall ever have that
blissful gracious look Self-ward with great love.

13) My great desire is to obtain by prayer the sacred
dust of the Feet of mighty Ramana which restores
for me my natural state where I remain alone as
mere "I am" being rid of all thoughts.

14) O Bhagavan, there will be no one who will be as
happy as I shall be, if You give me a small particle
of sacred dust of Your Feet in chit-ananda which
ever shines in the same manner without
undergoing the change of being present once and
absent in another time.


15) By knowing that my own destruction is my
real existence and by having unequal desire for my
own destruction and through the glance let me
attain my real existence by my own destruction.
Bestow upon me thus, the experience of Your
eternal presence.

16) If You give me the unobstructed surging experience
of knowing that Your presence is truly everywhere
and that everything (in the world) is nothing but
Your own form, that alone will be the kind divine
gift Sat-Chit-Ananda lovingly to me.

.....


22)  O, great Guru, I pray to You that You should take
my body, speech and mind under Your control
always till the body dies, and handle them in such
that they will never take to useless activities.

.......

33) Give me the strength not only to forgive those who
do wrong to me but also to forget the wrong. Make
me stand firm in that unequal state where I will
merge in You and will have no existence of my own.

34) I am living here only by the help and protection of
Your Grace. Bestow upon me the golden humility, so
that I shall never forget this and think egotistically
that it is all by my tapas and it is all due to my
merit.

......

40) O Lord Ramana only Your Feet are the shade to be
in an unaffected natural state where I can be free
from pain and pleasure which are the results of
blame and fame created by the words because of
the petty mind seeing the non-existent world as
something real and different from me.

.....

41) Take me to and fix me in the unshakeable state of
sahaja by giving me a bath of Jnana and by
providing me the cessation of all mental agitation
caused by fame and blame.

42) Not knowing that abiding in me (self) alone is the
highest happiness. I jump and run towards those
which are in front of me. Why have You not given
me the power of discrimination so that I shall be at
rest by knowing the truth that all these second and
third person objects are not at all existing apart
from me (self)

44) Not knowing what is reality and becoming a slave
of the illusory world, the mind becomes weak
forgetting the self, runs outward. So You shine well
destroying this forgetfulness of my stillness of Self.

..........

48) If You give me such courageous intellect by 
Your
Grace to firmly determine that any activity except
loving and abiding in the Heart is useless,
 I will not
request You even a bit (atom) of anything else.

52) Unite with me so that the strength of my false mind
be destroyed, which does not have love towards
Self (Heart) even though it has heard the real and
golden words of Your teachings. 

"Except from Your
Feet, the heart, the souls do not get an iota of
pleasure from anything else".

56) I bow before Your exemplified supreme vairagya
which You have shown by living with an only one
old torn loin cloth which was stitched with a thread
from the same rag and with a needle made up of
thorn. I beg You to bestow upon me such vairagya.

61) Even though I have learnt that the pleasurable
experience of any of the five senses is derived only
from self the heart, will not my mind turn within
seeking complete rest instead of trying to feed the
five senses for happiness?

..

64) Even though You advised me a number of times that
no trouble will befall on me, unless it is destined ,
how is it proper on my part to go against Your
advice, instead of drowning in peace with a mind
completely surrendered to You?

66) Bestow Your Grace upon me so that I shall not be
caught into the deceitful anger, but to subside
within with the mind well controlled by viveka
(discrimination) that except for my prarabdha none
other is in any way responsible for any misery that
comes in my life.

69) I have found out the cause for my sufferings. It is
nothing but my rising (as the body) instead of
remaining as 'I am'. The proper medicine for it is
Your upadesa "Who am I?". Now You Yourself
graciously feed me this medicine so that I may take
it and rest at peace.

70) What was I before I identified this body as I? How
and as what will I naturally be after the death of
this body which is this I? This confusion is terrible.
Kindly reveal to me.

74) Except by Your Grace how can I the meek get the
strength to destroy the ego. Therefore, by Your
Grace spring up from within in the form of the
strength of the enquiry about the reality (Self-
enquiry) in the form of love towards the
introversion (Self-love) or (swatma Bhakti) and in
the form of strength to abide in self.

75) Pleasure and pain are the results of love and hatred
towards things which are appearing to the mind as
if existing or non-existing. Therefore, if You give the
mental strength to enquire or attend to "is there an
‘I’ existing" (to whom is this pain and pleasure)?
Then how can there be any pain or pleasure for
me?

76)  Ordain my mind to enquire one-pointed within,
instead of being frightened and extroverted. Make
me by Your Grace one with You, the reality and to
become the ocean of bliss.

77) QO Ramana, who graciously manifested as
Arunachala the Hill of Jnana in front of Brahma and
Vishnu makes me know that which shines as 'I, I' is
the true 'I' by firmly catching hold of You, make me
drown in the heart with well established silence.

78) Not knowing and having no power to do (any
sadhana) I have come to You and surrendered. To
such a person if You ask me to do vichara where is
the strength for me. You who has a true power on
me to do this also (vichara).

Praying for the destruction of inadvertence

89) Oh, the one who bestows Jnana through Your look! Oh, the Lord Annamalai in human form! Root out the ghostly tree of inadvertence (pramada) by bestowing upon me the greatest earnest love is Self-Attention. 90) I am unable to abide firmly in Self-Attention due to the wild possession of the ghost "inadvertence" (pramada). Give me fast, the boon that the missile of Grace targets the ghost and makes it annihilated to the root.

91) Turn my life fruitful by making me reject all useless
activities which are in no way beneficial for the
(real) awakening and by making me for for the path
of Your upadesa (vichara). Also, make me act by the
power of Your Grace that idleness, the poverty (of
Grace), should perish.

92) Shower the rain of Your Grace upon me whose
heart is broken and dried (due to the worldly
desires) so that at least from now on it should gain
love to Your gracious Feet and thereby get a great
unceasing interest (for vichara) and enthusiasm to
get rid of the inadvertence.

93) Oh, my lord be gracious to me a little, so that my
mind which slips down and wanders away due to
inadvertence, should have unceasing love, get fixed
firmly at You become one with You and enjoy Your bliss.

101) I now understand that the many different
knowledge I have acquired through seeing,
reading and practising are really remaining and
distracting me for away from Your divine Feet.
Therefore graciously teach me the art of reaching
You.

102) To the first person singular ego, You form a root
cause as first person singular and never take dual
form as world such as ata(?). "supreme"! I, the
meek one let me learn the Self-knowledge so that I
can overcome the multitude of knowledges and
later never rising to say as ‘I learnt’ the Self-
knowledge, by submerging in You. Kindly show me
Your light of Grace.

......

104) My rising as 'I' (am so and so) is nothing but the
rising of miseries and the miseries are also only for
the rising I and by the rising I. 

Therefore,graciously make me learn the skill of remaining
unswervingly in the supreme Self.

......

105) If I am given to experience the consciousness in
sleep where there is neither pain nor pleasure,
what more will be needed in the walking state (a)?
Therefore, make me learn the state of unbroken
sleep with consciousness and remain ever "as I is"
(?) (a): other than the experience

112) By Your nature, You're present (exist) at all places;
With that rule, You are also present (exist) in my
heart;But how is that I do not have peace? Unless
You destroy the tendencies of chitta which creates
attachment and bring me under Your gracious rule,
there cannot be peace in me. Graciously do it.


114) The vasanas which never allow me to remain is my
state of being (self), take the different forms of
likes and dislikes and make me whirl in the ever
increasing screen of dream - appearance. You, who
alone is fit to put an end to this, be gracious.


116) Bestow Your Grace upon me so that I shall drown
deep in heart by vichara destroying the
accumulated past vasanas which are so strong that
they rise from chittam stealthily all of a sudden and
rob off the strength of even a well balanced mind
and spoil it.

117) Oh my Lord, destroy the root from which all useless
thoughts rise up unceasingly like waves and unite
even with Your Feet so that I may always be worthy
of Your Grace.

118) How can I, the dull minded one be able to remain in
the thoughtless state of Siva? Oh my father, kindly,
come and help me by Your Grace so that all the
vasanas in me will die.


119) Will any vasanas survive without depending upon
an 'I' the form of mind? If You, the Lord destroy
today itself this 'I', the ego which one of the
vasanas can remain anymore?


120) Unless the vasanas which are continuously
obstructing and spoiling all the efforts taken from
my very early days when I took this body are not
destroyed by Your Grace, Oh, Ramanesa, what can I
do further?

......


121) Oh, my Lord in my heart how can I describe all the
innumerable vasanas in me? Even a little I cannot
do. Therefore, graciously destroy all of them and
make me merge in Your Feet, the True Jnana which
does not know any otherness (bit of differentiation)


123) Vasanas the impressions of the past karmas are the
cause for the rising of the ego 'I'. 
But now I, Your
slave, pray to You and call for Your help.
 Graciously
protect me from vasanas (henceforth) and You (self)
shine forth.

..

132) Are You not the proper doctor who knows well what
is the proper medicine for my poor, weak mind
which repeatedly falls back not able to stand firm
as 'I am that I am'. Give me that medicine.

133) By Your Gracious churn bring out all vasanas stored
in me for ages and destroy them totally while
churning by Your Grace when vasanas rise up, lift
up my level so that I could bear whatever
difficulties I may have to face.

134) Here is this fellow, one 'I', because of his existence
there appears millions of evil and miserable lives on
earth. All these are nothing but the impure nature
of this 'I'. Graciously purify and free him from all
the impurities and reveal the reality that You alone
exist.

......

139) Though all creatures and all the ordinary worldly
people with attachment are having love towards
Self, but in a round about way, while is not the one
who is introverted alone attains liberation the
Bliss? (Therefore be gracious not to give ....inverse
138 (?))

...

141) O my Lord Ramana, see my poor state that I cannot
live even a moment without Your Grace will You not
make my mind which springs and wanders over
only the second and third person objects, to turn
inward giving up the external and to be happily
quiet.

143) Give me in such a way that it will become easy for
me to turn Self-ward without attending to other
things (the world) 
which  seemingly exists 'because of
my slackness in Self-Attention.'

........        .......


I Am = Grace

150) I understand that Your shining within as 'I am' (the
sat-chit) is itself Grace. But also do by Your Grace
the act of removing the mind's tendency of going
out and turn it towards Self.


151) I do not have so much eagerness to turn inward as I
have towards outward. What (tapas) shall I do to
obtain greater love to turn inward (ie., towards
self) than the love I have towards the deluding
attention.

152) Fix me in the grand Self-attention where I cannot
have any liking even in the least to see anyone of
the second/third person objects.
 
Where the 'I
and mine' (matured) will never rise at all due to the
very advanced Self-Attention which will grow there
more and more.


153) If You bestow upon me the intense desire to gain
the happy state of being still and to have not even
the least desire towards the external delusion an
thus fix me in the Heart, then all my fear will
vanish. Kindly, give me only this.

174) if You do not bestow Your Grace upon me so that I
shall conquer the ghostly rising of 'I' and ‘mine’
through proper viveka, I shall become a store of all
blames and shall fall into the waste pit of birth and
death. Will it not be so? Therefore, bestow Your
Grace of proper viveka upon me.

.....

175) The foolish mind slipping away from abiding in Self,
first knows a body as 'I' and then a world in front of
me as real. 
Why does it rise so? 
This rising is highly
improper for me.
 Therefore Gracefully destroy it.


176) Destroy my ‘I am this body’ idea which is an
obstacle to attain the priceless supreme divine life
of self, the eternal knowledge where the delusion of
the body awareness ceases to exist.


177) You are the 'Being - I' where the rising ‘I' does not
exist. Bestow Your Grace upon me, who, in all my
days of worshipping You, is weeping before You and
sincerely begging to You so that the rising 'I' should
drown in You, the being 'I'


180) To attain the pure life where You alone are and not
‘I’ is wise. What can then remain as ‘I' or ‘mine’ if
the ghostly ego is annihilated by Your missile of
supreme silence?

.

181) Guru Ramana, instead of You, my Lord, I the slave
should not rise and say ‘I will do this'. Let this
rising be destroyed and annihilated by the power of
Your Grace with Your cool heart.

184) why? Is it necessary that an 'I' the individual should
live? By seeing me as non-existent what loss You
are going to have? By not allowing me to rise once
for all and subside in You, be gracious. If not what
will be of use to anyone (no use)

185) Hereafter bestow upon me that I do not feel any
(beingness of body) conscious of the body separate
from self. Is it not now essential for You to provide
me the life of ever remaining at Your Feet attaining
which one can never have movement of birth and
death.

186) Press me by Your divine Feet which has taken me
as Your own, so that I shall not rise again as 'T' in
this body or in any other bodies and that. I shall be
drowned in the taste of the bliss of being still.

188) Other than attaining naturally the loss of
individuality, what else is my desire here? If You
also agree to give me this boon, what more
happiness is for me in any world?


189) Unlike those want to gain something from You and
enjoy, I beg to You for my own annihilation. I will
never ask You anything else. If You provide me this
boon, then how can anyone survive there to ask You
anything more?

190) Reveal to me who take refuge at Your Feet, the
reality which is the base of all and see that the
delusive individuality will never rise up again.

191) Will it be proper for Your Grace to allow me, the
wicked one to rise as 'I' without (?) You alone exist
as 'I am'? O Arunachala Ramana, my mother, my
father, my guru who took me as Your own, kindly
annihilate me by making me uniting one with You.

192) Crush me to drown fully in You removing my
confusion of rising as an individual 'I' who gives
room for the rising of the false appearance of the
world and see it (as if different from me)

193) Since even the skilful intellect which has learned
the vedas and vedanta is destroyed when Self-
knowledge dawns and thus since even the vedas
become avedas (not at all the knowledge) -
ignorance, kindly swallow all such ignorance as
nivedhana (food offering to You).

194) Is he (the 'I') not an unreal one who knows the non-
existent (world) as existent? Where from this unreal
one (I) gets power to see so except from You, the
really existing one? O my Lord, kindly destroy him
(me) so that I do not exist any more.

195) Take my attachment to this body (I am this body
idea) as the camphor offering to the Hill of fire
(Arunachala) leaving no residue (after burning).
Tell me, is this not the only boon for which I ever
prayed to You?

197) O my Lord, without the rising and setting of the ego
‘I' (waking and sleep), make me to be still. 
If I get
this boon from You by praying, weeping and
begging to You, all my fire of desires (tapagni) will
be extinguished and cool bliss will prevail.

198) O Lord, who came on earth to save even the worst
people, kindly prevent and stop this improper rising
of 'I' though it (I) rises for whatever reason.

199) O the one who glanced me in the form Sri Ramana
Guru, and took me as Your own, why did I rise
instead of remaining in You (self) who bestows bliss
more and more when I remain in You. Help me
again to subside in You without rising by showing
me the secret.

204) By the false mind which comes out from You as if a
separate entity, there appear objects other than 'T'
and then arise a desire in the form of thoughts for
them. Is it not? When will I drown in You without
leaving You?

206) Since I who rose first, myself is a thought, I cannot
hereafter remain without thinking. Therefore, to
fall back and drown in You, is the state of
thoughtlessness. Bestow this worthy boon on me.

207) O my Lord, by Your Grace give me the well
established state of Self-existence without rising to
the first thought from (‘I'). Enough of miseries I had
experienced by the rising of the mischievous
delusive mind because of my not remaining quiet.

208) Until Ia separate entity remain there will be fear,
desire, hatred and so on. When I do not rise as an
individual and You alone exist, to whom will all this
belong? Therefore give the state of non-rising.

209) Why did I rise? Why did I rise? Alas from now at
least, give me the boon of not rising again (as 'I').
Destroy by Your Grace all multitude of vasanas
accumulated in me because of my rising as body.

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