Where to find God?
Where I 'sense' Existence.
'I' sense existence.
so I has to be existence
I , devoid of the phenomenon.
The Pure i is existence.
Only the Pure I can sense existence.
Not the impure or the phenomenal I
which goes by names like, mind, jiva, or an 'entity' in general
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only that which is of the nature of reality can reach reality.
I exist, not as the phenomenon.
But that which is at the substratum of the phenomenon.
I am conditioned to think existence as the nature of movement.
As that which occupies space and time.
existence untouched by these phenomenon is pure existence
that I am.
that i always was.
that is my real nature.
breathing, chanting, movement, bathing, cognizing, getting into intellectual discussions is not my real nature.
My real nature is being,
devoid of any phenomenon.
if i sense phenomenon and i get the urge to access it or hold it or use it as a support,
...then i shall fall a 1000 feet
be established in Existence.
because that's what you really are.
why do you try to be who you are not
and then cry?
how long have you been doing this?
why do you get attracted towards things that do not constitute existence?
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tear off all the phenomenon.
Then is-ness will transpire as is-ness
not otherwise.
This, i am not.
i am not
should be your natural tendency
towards any phenomenon
what remains is what always was.
God.
You.
As non different from each other
how can externalising the mind in any phenomenon allow you to reach that;
which is just not internalised,
but even further amalgamated with you?
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Dis-interestedness towards the world, its activities
towards one's individuality,
towards oneself
towards the activities of the mind
would this not be a mandatory step
towards self realisation?
It is.
Mind has to be made niruapadhika
because all what mind thinks is anatma, avidya.
It just doesn't have any range to reach the truth
mind includes the so called 'pet' viz. the 'intellect'
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unless you realise that anything in this world, anything in sansar is nothing but a burning ball of fire, mind wouldn't automatically turn towards the Self.
a girl from a high class society, when she finds herself in a a college, where no one belongs to her socio eco status and intellectual level,
craves internally every moment to meet at least one person who belongs to her intellectual level.
although she mixes with 'these' people, she knows, that she obviously doesn't belong to 'them'.
such is the intellect of a dnyani.
every moment he knows he doesn't belong to the world of 'phenomenon'
he belongs only to the substratum
never to to the phenomenon.
the moment that girl finds someone of her calibre, she suddenly becomes extroverted and mixes and mingles with that person or that group
which stuns everyone
because she was completely introverted or so it appeared to the other group.
A dnyani is disinterested in the phenomenon.
he cannot co-mingle with the lot.
he has lost that ability.
no matter how hard he tries, he just cannot.
But, he blends with 'existence' very naturally.
smooth as a silky cream.
he knows it is his natural state.
a state that is sahaja
a state that cannot have any vikalpa
because all kalpa-na and vikalpa have been left far behind
like a plane that rises to 28000 feet has left the city far behind.
you see the skeletal edges of the city through the mist, barely
never to touch it ever again.
the sambandha has been broken.
why should gold go in search of copper to enhance its value?
how can existence truly reach non existence?
how can sun reach darkness?
you are the truth
you are samadhi
you are grace
you are god
truth, grace god, guru cannot be distinct or other than existence.
breathing is my real nature you say.
no. it is the real nature of the body.
you can exist without that.
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narada parivrajika upanishad
'the one desirous of attaining atma should live with the help of atma alone.'
this is real sadhana or tapas.
for an unawakened, this is poetry
for an awakened, it seems for him to be the natural conclusion of the vedas
and is able to abide by it at least to some extent.
As nothing in adhyatma is possible without 'extra ordinary' amounts of 'sattva'
Atma ramo bhavati
stabdho bhavati
matto bhavati
you do need that unmada,
otherwise the mind doesn't let go the phenomenon and its attachment to it.
without matto, you cannot be atma ramo
and then stabdho shall never follow.
all things in adhyatma are so easy to understand.
but as difficult to follow as as much as how easy they are to understand.
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mastan swami; 'let cinders be poured on your head, one shouldn't allow the life in atma to get disturbed'
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by staying with existence, you know existence
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by staying with existence alone, you know existence,
not otherwise
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Paap = non understanding = excruciating suffering
it is due to paap that i identify myself with the spark
ans not the fire
it is due to paap that I identify myself with the wave
and not the ocean
it is due to paap that i identify myself with the elephant
and not the wood
It is due to paap that I identify myself with the necklace
and not the gold
it is due to paap that I identify myself with the entity I
and not the real I, the Self
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Let cinders be poured on the head, one shouldn't let the life in atma to get disturbed.
If you can stay as the Self, no other sadhana is required.
Irrespective of prarabdha, every moment one gets a chance to choose the Self or non self
Extra ordinary ability to hold on to the Self at all times,
under all circumstances
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I breathe , therefore I am
Nay.
I am
Therefore I breathe
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Hold on to not what you think exists,
But due to which it exists.
Can you?
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Ram is with you.
Due to paap, however, you are able to relate to only the A-ram in you, the entity
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so easy to see that which the electricity makes move, like the fan
But electricity is not remembered or sought.
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So easy to see maya and the world,
But not easy to focus 'due to which' it stands
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That 'due to which' is You.
That You is Him
I am That
I am.
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period
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